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I'm Lost: A List

November 2, 2017

1.  In 2012, I started a new career.  I was a Public Librarian.  I had finally chosen my path.

2.  In 2015, I quit that career.  Depression was a big motivator for quitting.  

3.  Today, the county government posted a job listing for the exact position I dreamed of having before I quit my career.  Seeing it, in black and white, has made me feel sad.  What if I'd just waited?  

4.  I am unmoored and confused.

5.  Even though all of this is terrifying, I am trying to relish this freedom.  

6.  All around me, high school seniors are filling out college applications and making plans for their futures.  I can see the anxiety on their faces.  

7.  I spent years and years being unsure about my future...unsure what I wanted and how I would get it if I ever figured it out.

8.  Still, I have the freedom to make my own choices.

9.  And I can choose just about anything.  I am unmoored...

10.  But, that's OK.

11.  And it might even be really good.

12.  And whatever comes next, I am a stronger problem-solver now than I was before I quit my career.

13.  What if my mid-life crisis is about choosing among many possible paths instead of trying to escape the path I thought I wanted?

14.  And what if it doesn't really matter anyway?

15.  Because if I can just be near people I love and occasionally experience happiness, isn't that enough?

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